ninja!!

i was so stressed out these past few weeks..my mom was hospitalized last week, i found out that my sister’s having a kid (this is a positive stress, though..am calling the baby little megatron–megatro for short. hope he or she’d learn how to transform by the age of 4, wahehe!!), i sent my students home 3 1/2 hours before their dismissal and got my ass chewed in the process, i’m getting fatter by the second, i’m definitely lacking sleep, new pimples are cropping on my face, i was made co-coach of the athletics team for the nursing dept (good thing deejay’s the coach!!), i’m up to my nose in paperworks, i had a row with the crazy woman living below my bedroom, i’m getting fatter by the millisecond…oh, did i mention that already??

anyway, that’s not the whole of it.. my cell has this outrageously ugly line on the lcd (but it’s getting shorter now), i keep on forgetting to bring my lollipop ng intsik to work, my skin’s getting darker and darker from being too overly exposed to the sun (deejay’s calling me negneg now, hate him..), my back’s covered with prickly heat, i’m always tired, i had to change my lineup of songs in my friendster account…. gggrrr….

i’ve always been able to laugh at myself when hard times hit me. this lessens my stress. but nowadays, even though i laugh so hard that my stomach would want to kill me just to get her pain over with (yes, she’s a woman! but she eats like a man, i don’t know why…), my stress still would not leave me.

and then it hit me. i knew that i needed the beach.i needed to be on my back in water, looking at the sky (or the moon and the stars) and i needed to see just how small i am in this world. this might sound crazy, but when everything’s just too overwhelming for me, i would usually head over to the beach just to see how insignificant my problems are. the beach would always make me feel so small that i would end up thinking that maybe my problems are not that big after all..

and so i did…go to the beach, i mean. deejay went with me. when we got there, we were not able to do any swimming, though. it was just not calm enough to allow us that. but we got to drink..again, haha! and i got to see the pristine waters again. and that’s enough for me. thank you madam president, for that holiday!!

this is what i have to say: STRESS!!!?? bring it on!!!

looks like i’m finally settling into the routine of having a JOB!!! hehehe..  look at me, i finally found the time to blog again. weeii!! this means that even though i still have lots and lots of things to do, i can now squeeze in a little blogging into my internal to-do list. what a relief!

anyway, i’m enjoying my work, and this is the highest of the perks my new life has offered me. i love babbling on and on and on in front of a lot of people. i’m a clinical instructor now, did i tell you guys?? i’m still viewed as a bitch, though..but who gives a shIt? as long as the pay’s good and i can rise up to the challenge my job throws at me, i don’t really give a rat’s ass what others say…ok, let me rephrase that..i care about what other people who matters–those i luurv(family, jowa, friends)!!– say about me but to those whom i’ve put on my ignore/spam list?? to hell with your opinions! but really..if my students learn from me and i learn from them too and if i do my job well, cross my t’s and dot my i’s, well..nothing else matters.

back to my job… i’m simply loving it! i love the independence my salary gives me, hur hur! i now have the POWER to buy anything within my budget. but the WILL to actually buy that anything?? zilch..zero…nada!! hehe..coz i’m still up to my neck in utang from my siblings. and i’m still paying them. but its ok..by next year–that’s january 2008– my utang will finally be paid and i’ll be richer!!

i’m also meeting a lot of people. some are nice, some are mean, some are normal, some are weird, some are shy, some are just too loud, some are sober, some are wasted..hehehe.. some are worth my time, others aren’t… but that’s life, right? that’s the busy life!

and i’m getting better in math, haha! with the help of my trusty calculator, of course. i’m getting better at controlling my temper, too. i’ve always been impatient with people, but nowadays?? i have the patience of a saint! a saint bernard, that is, hahaha!!

and finally… i’m busy now! i only have sundays off, i wake up early for the first three days of the week (6:30am–i’m earlier than the roosters over at dayangdang street..i can hear them from here, really!!), and i still have time for the usual nights out with the boys. plus, my baby gets to kiss me every day of the week. we’re colleagues now.that’s another added perk. see? i’m busy!! i’m busy..busy as a bee!!! weeeiii!!!